Wednesday, January 30, 2013

One of those weeks

This post is brought to you courtesy of Em's iPad mini. I was totally against the kiddos getting iPads but now that we have a couple of them, I'm in love!!!! We'll see how this post goes though. It might change my mind a little.

Ever have one of those weeks that you either want a do-over or to erase it altogether? Well that's where I am right now. Nothing seems to be following my grand plan. And with my control issues, you can imagine this is turning my world upside down.

Work is beyond frustrating. Most of the time I'm loving my job but its been rough for me. My patience is being tested and I'm finding myself not being able to hide my frustration. I hate letting my negative feelings become outwardly evident and I find myself making it very clear how upset I am. Definitely not ok in my book.

If that's not enough, Em has become deathly afraid of the dark. I don't know what happened all of a sudden but this girl gets panicked the minute the lights go off. She's sleeping with her door open and a light on in the hallway. Accidentally turn the light off and she's awake in a second having a baby panic attack. It's so scary as a Momma to see your baby so scared.

She's also doing this crazy thing with sleeping on the floor. If she sleeps in her bed, she's climbing into our bed between 1am and 3am every night. If she sleeps on the floor, she sleeps through the night. What is up with that? I don't get it but I won't lie. I don't miss the middle of the night visits.

Without going into too much detail, I think I am red meat intolerant. I might have just created that disorder but over the past few months, I have had the hardest time with ground beef. It's bad. I guess I have to turn to my BFF Google to figure this one out.

I also have to find the time to get some good posts written. They're floating around in my head. I jus have to get them out. I've got great stuff....my workout recap, my IronGirl journey (and a special offer for my readers), and a few other gems.

I'm putting it all in His hands knowing that He'll guide me through these difficult days. I love being challenged but I need a break. I have this constant overwhelmed feeling. I need to find that balance, the comfort zone, that place of peace because I'm on the verge of breaking.

4 comments:

  1. i hope you find your peace! it's weird but i frequently sleep on the floor because i like the firmness. maybe her bed is too soft? just an idea. hope you have a better week!

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  2. Hang in there sweetie. Life can really beat us up sometimes but your tougher than it is.
    My son developed a sudden fear of the dark too. We now have to drive with the inside light on during the night when we are traveling. I have no clue where it came from. I'm hoping it's a phase.

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  3. I'm sorry to hear about your troubles at work & your tummy troubles too. On a brighter note, I nominated you for Liebster award :) Of course you don't have to do it if you don't want to.

    http://imsailingaweigh.blogspot.com/2013/02/day-32-liebster-award_2229.html

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  4. Sorry you've been facing some challenges! I hope everything is starting to smooth itself out.

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